Melly's Mind

News

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 00:36:26 GMT

Did I tell ya'll I was going back to school to be a nurse?

I want..

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 16:01:07 GMT

a ladybug themed layout for my blog. That's all. Maybe something else later.

It's going to be..

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 20:30:49 GMT

a Nephew and I'm saddly disappointed. My sister-in-law only wanted a boy because my brother-in-law (hubby's brother) and my sister-in-law's son wanted a boy. I know she really wanted a girl. My brother-in-law thinks his wife's son is a pussy, pardon my language. So I guess he wants a son, to show how a tough son should be. And then the wife's son, wants a boy because his joke of a father had a girl with his girlfriend, so the boy doesn't want a sister because he already has one.

I know I should be happy I'm getting any kind of niece or nephew but I was really wanting a girl cousin for Lexie to play with, but that's a bit selfish of me. The boy does deserve a brother I suppose, but I don't think they will have any more than this one child together. And I have no hope for my brother that turns 25 on monday. He doesn't even have a girlfriend, so I don't see him having any children in the near future or ever really.

Update for my Friends

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 21:57:42 GMT

Since Miss Friday was wondering what has been going on I thought I would post rather than fill up her tag board. But this way I can update everyone too. And I have decided to keep my blog, but when and if I post is something altogether different.

I guess I will try to start from my last real update.

So since then, me and family have moved back to my home town. Issues with money that never seemed to remedy themselves and a possible opportunity brought us back. I didn't really want to leave since I had a nice job, but Dave found a job that he likes at a Country Club that pays more than any other job he had when we lived in a town 10 times the size of my hometown. The big plus is that he gets to rub shoulders with some pretty important people in the community. Now the opportunity we thought would work out fell down the tubes but it might come up again with all his shoulder rubbing.

The beginning of May is when we were permanently relocated to my parents house. So for the last 3 months me and Lexie have be staying at home. So in turn that means 3 months of job hunting and not a single job to show for it. It really sucks. Plus I miss our friends and as much as I love my family and even though its not horrible living with them, I want to get our own place but we can't till I get a job. So far the only exciting things going on in life are the trip we took to see the Dave Matthews Band, an early anniversary celebration. And then also that I am going to be an Aunt to my brother-in-law and his wife's baby thats due in January. Dave also has a cousin due in January too. Oh I guess there was my 10 year class reunion too and that was nice, though I never really had friends in high school but some people were nicer than others.

In any case life is pretty boring and depressing. I'm definitely not optimistic. It's hard to stay positive with every rejection. Not much I can do really other than keep trying.

Hugs to all.

Thinking About Quitting

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 01:52:53 GMT

I've already partially given up, though people don't seem to mind that I'm not around anymore.

Hope everyone is doing well any way.

Song for Friday

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 20:08:42 GMT

The Best of What's Around

Hey my friend
It seems your eyes are troubled
Care to share your times with me
Would you say you're feeling low and so
A good idea would be to get it off your mind

See, you and me
Have a better time than most can dream
Have it better than the best
And so can pull on through
Whatever tears at us
Whatever holds us down
And if nothing can be done
We'll make the best of what's around

Turns out not where but who you're with
That really matters
And hurts not much when you're around

If you hold on tight
To what you think is your thing
You may find you're missing all the rest
She run up into the light surprised
Her arms are open
Her mind's eye is

Seeing things from a
Clearer side than most can dream
On a better road I feel
So you could say she's safe
Whatever tears at her
Whatever holds her down
And if nothing can be done
She'll make the best of what's around

Turns out not where but what you think
That really matters
And hurts not much when you're around

Alas A True Update

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 14:50:15 GMT

I've been mulling over making a real post for the last week. So I guess I'll update everyone on what's been going on in my life.

The holiday's were nice. Everyone already knows I got my camera and vacuum. I also returned the second camera I got for all the Harry Potter books and a cd of duets with Reba. I ate lots and loved spending time with family.

Right before Christmas we lost Lexie's spot at her Daycare. It was really sad and I cried. I won't go into too many details. But let's just say it had to do with money and the director was not very understanding. We did find another Daycare quickly though that saves us $16/wk, which is huge in the Daycare world. The new place is great and she likes it a lot too.

We did have a gap in care and she stayed with Dave's parents. And boy was that the worst decision in the world that we could have made. I told Dave it would have been more fair to split time between the grandparents. But he wasn't budging. So bascially Lexie was a bear when we got her back. She was sleeping in and staying up late, totally off of her original routine. And here almost 2 months later we still aren't quite back on the routine. There is more to this than what I've said, but if I don't stop it will be all about Dave's mom and I don't want that.

At the beginning of January Dave's cousin in Texas came for a visit. She has sort of been keeping in touch with one of our friends here in town. But she stayed with us one night and we went out with her and some other friends. It was a pretty good time.

In mid-January Dave was asked to step down from his position as Dairy Manager at a local grocery store. My cousin was even the assistant manager there. It was ridiculous and I won't go into how pissed off it made me. After that happened he started selling Rainbow Vacuums. And the Rainbow is a wonderful Vacuum and I'm waiting for him to earn me one. If he sees enough before the end of the month we might get to go on an all expenses paid cruise.

I'm not fond of the sales position since it's not guaranteed that you get this amount each week. It's commission based, so if he doesn't sell he doesn't get paid. Yuck. He is applying for other things here and there, but he really has he heart set on this restaurant that he and my dad might run back in my hometown. Tomorrow they will find out if the money backers are willing to give it a go. I'm hoping if they do they won't turn the place into a coffee shop because my home town really needs a BBQ place. Plus my dad's BBQ is heaven.

Other than that Dave and I have been going to therapy. He wants to save our marriage. Mainly he isn't getting any because I'm not interested for a number of reasons. So we are working on that among other communication issues and my own anxiety/stress/add issues. I really like therapy. It's nice to have someone that can come in and give an unbiased opinion about what is going on.

Valentine's Day was pretty boring. I had Taco Bueno for dinner. That was exciting. I think I did laundry that day too. We did end up celebrating later on the 22nd. That was date night, the picture is a couple entries down. It was a good time all around. I'm not going to share details because I don't know who all actuallys reads this and I don't want people to judge me for having a good time the way I did.

This last weekend, my parents and Lexie and I went to a wedding. It was really nice. That's actually were I took the header picture. It's not what I intended the picture to be but I think it's still nice.

Any way I love you all and hope everyone is having a good week. I start vacation on thursday night, I'm so excited.

Gift from my Hubby

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 17:22:36 GMT

Date Night

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 17:12:10 GMT

Thought I would share a picture from our date on friday.

New Picture

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 20:09:58 GMT